Corinne

1. Honestly, what color is your underwear?:
pink and purple striped that says world class flirt on the front...and it's a thong

2. Honestly, whats on your mind right now?:
i don't have the mla worksheet to take to class and tasha's birthday tomorrow

3. Honestly, what are you doing right now?:
filling this survey out really fast before i run to class

4. Honestly, what did you do today?:
woke up to the phone ringing a jillion times at alex's parents, went to breakfast with alex at the southern, rolled around in bed with the dog for a while, left chattanooga to drive here

5. Honestly, do you think you are attractive?:
not usually, but occasionally, i think my eyes are attractive

6. Honestly, have you done something bad today?:
smoked a cigarette or a few

7. Honestly. do you watch the disney channel?:
no, i don't have it in knoxville and alex doesn't have cable

8. Honestly, are you jealous of someone right now?:
honestly, yes

9. Honestly, what makes you happy most of the time?:
being with my friends, when alex is happy, adderall makes me happy

10. Honestly, do you bite your nails?:
nope, only when i have acryllic ones

11. Honestly, what is your mood right now?:
rushed and stressed, but happy

12.Honestly, have you had an eating disorder?:
honestly, yes

13. Honestly, do you want to see someone this very minute?:
yes, my tasha

14. Honestly, do you have a deep dark secret?:
not really, i mean i can't think of one

15. Honestly, do you hate someone right now?:
not that i can think of

16. Honestly, who do you want to hug right now?:
ashlee

17. Honestly, are you loyal?:
most of the time i think i am, but people can't be perfect. to my best friends i'm loyal

18. Honestly, are you in denial?:
probably, but if you're truly in denial, you don't really know it

19. Honestly, wouldn't you rather be having sex right now?:
actually, no. not right now. maybe if you asked me later

20. Honestly, who is/are your best friend(s)?:
ashlee, ansley, tasha, alex

21. Honestly, do you love someone?:
yes i do

22. Honestly, do you like anyone?:
indeed

23. Honestly, is it going anywhere with them?:
it already has

24. Honestly, do you smoke weed?:
occasionally, i'm not a pot head though.the first time i'd smoked in like a month and half was last week

25. Honestly, do you smoke cigarettes?:
i do i do

26. Honestly, do you do drugs?:
honestly? i definitely enjoy uppers and psychadelics (including acid even though we've had a bad experience with it)

27. Honestly, Do you like your teeth?:
nope

i feel like a failure. in all aspects of life. i've lost most of my good friends. i'm failing all my classes. my and alex's relationship will go good and i'll do something to fuck it up. i literally suck at life. and i don't know what to do to make myself happier because i live for the approval of others. and i feel like i'm letting everyone down which makes me even more stressed out and upset. i need therapy.

hung out with ashlee. went to chatty just to see her, feel special. haha. went to stone cup and smoked cigarettes and talked. good times, great memories, bad new drama, got over it.

alex is still being a good boyfriend. he brought me breakfast in bed tuesday morning. so sweet. he didn't feel good though.

did a lot of studying for poli sci. felt productive.

didn't sleep very well last night. weird dreams, kept waking up. phone calls at 2 in the morning.

very tired. have a poli sci exam tonight. i can't wait til spring break. these next two days are going to be really long.

peace, love, and uppers-
coco=messiah

alex and i are good to go. turns out a week of not calling him did make him miss me. we appreciate each other more.

drove to chatty on friday w/ amanda. we went to wa ho and saw daniel goetz and david nail. went back to alex's and me and alex and raspy got drunk. played farkle. "don't complain, cause you're just gonna farkle." alex and i made up....five times. haha.

went to lunch w/ my parents on saturday. didn't feel very good. lost a little weight this past week, and i was really dizzy on sat. amanda and raspy went to michael's throw down but i stayed home and slept til alex got back from the races.

went to lunch w/ alex at steak and shake yesterday, then to wal mart. rented just friends, saw 2, and domino. just friends made me roll on the floor. crazy funny. alex acted like old sweet alex yesterday. made me giddy, like i had a crush all over again.

drove back to knoxville this morning. we went to the tanning bed. i need some more addy. ashlee's in chattanooga...you didnt' call me last night whore.

spring break's in a week. i have over a hundred dollars. yay!

peace, love, and making up/out-
coco

so here's the deal...alex and i are on trial separation. i think. we never finished our conversation about us. so we're not really broken up. and tasha asked him if he anybody walked up to him and asked him if he had a girlfriend he would still yes, so that puts some of my fears to rest. i'm gonna give him space, time to think. we'll see how things turn out.

i think this may be the end. alex and i got into a huge fight over something stupid.

i'm pretty sure that he's gonna break up with me....again.

i hate life in general.

i wanna cry....again.

i'm not happy. i don't know why. i'm just not.

i'm sick of school, and i'm pretty sure i'm failing pretty much every class at this point which means i'll lose scholarship and my parents will disown me.

there's something wrong with alex lately. i hope he's still happy with me.

amanda and michael may both go back to chattanooga and i won't have anyone in knoxville.

i miss kristen and having people i can talk to who have time to listen.

i don't wanna grow up.

i think i need prozac.

peace, love, and anti depressents-

coco

http://kevan.org/johari?name=Coco de Loco
tell me what you think of me. :)

so everyone broke up for valentine's day. not me and alex, don't worry kids, mom and dad are still together. but pretty much everyone else in this circle of "friends" that we call ourselves. big drama.

michael's nose is broken. derick and mallory are broken up. derick's leaving in less than a week. evan got kicked out of his house...although he's back home again.

valentine's day pretty much sucked balls. i saw alex in the morning after i'd been up all night at mal's after me and amanda had driven down for her at 2:30 in the morning. he had to work all day and he got a ticket from one of those freakin' picture taker things at red lights. he was pretty much pissed off all day and when i finally got in touch with him at like 6 pm, he yelled at me.

i cried.

i dropped amanda off w/ derick and mallory and went to alex's house and laid in bed til he came home from his parents. then we had a long talk about money and he felt shitty for not having enough to do anything for me. but all i really wanted was dinner. since we had no reservations anywhere we went to waffle house. then we went to chris bedwell's and watched casino, and then we went home and i passed out because i'd been awake a long time.

i picked amanda up this morning and now we're back in knoxville. i don't want to go to any of my classes. i'm sleepy. night kids.

peace, love, and comfy pillows
-coco-

this is that ten people to say something to anonymously or whateva. i did it during poli sci last week because i was bored out of my mind.

1. I hate how angry you are. Ninety percent of the time you'rea a great person to be around, but when you blow a fuse it ends up badly and it makes me afraid of you sometimes.

2. I don't trust you. Part of me does, and then part of me really wants to protect myself. You hurt me and a tiny part of me hates you for it, but a much bigger part of me forgives you. Somehow I'm still drawn to you and still love you, but I still don't completely trust you.

3. There's life outside of relationships. You always make me feel like a third wheel when it was originally supposed to be you and me. It's shallow and it pisses me off.

4. I admire you. You and I are a lot alike except that everything we have in common you're better at. I admire you for that. I just wish there was at least one thing that I was better or at equal at.

5. I can't stand you. I don't trust you in the least bit. You're fake with me when you pretend to be so real with everyone else. I'm glad that you're gone and I hate when you come home. I hate you for lying to me.

6. I'm sorry for how I left things between us. I just stopped talking to you. I was being petty and childish and didn't want to deal with my mistakes, and I still don't. You were one of the best things that's happened to me.

7. Stop being dramatic. You act like a child. You hold grudges and you follow the crowd. You think people are guilty by association when they've never done anything to you. You're a bitch and NO ONE likes you.

8. I miss you. I miss what we used to be. You used to be the only one who could make me laugh if I was in a bad mood. You'd always been there for me. And now you're not, and you treat me differently because of what someone else thinks and says about me. I miss you.

9. You drive me crazy. I love you, then I hate you. I know you better than anyone and vice versa. We fight and we make up. You're so stubborn which is aggravating because I'm just as stubborn. WE click and clash so well. I hope our friendship never ends.

10. I wish I were you. I've looked up to you forever. Even through your hard times that I probably shouldn't have admired you in. You've been the fuel in my fire for a long time.